Some days are more frustrating than others. Today was fairly average on the frustrating scale, but lately my days seem to have more frustrations than successes. My computer is dying, my walls need to be painted, there's not enough chocolate (there's never enough chocolate haha) etc. Just a bunch of little things building up.
I often wonder why I'm doing this. This design business stuff. Because it would be way 'easier' to work for another company doing media or design things. It would ease a lot of worries and it would be nice to count on a steady paycheck. Somedays, the prospect of a 'real job' is mighty appealing.
I have to keep reminding myself why I do this.
I do this because I love design. Fonts, colours, making everything look just right brings me a lot of joy. Install days are some of my favourites :)
I do this because everything I've done so far has brought me here. Graphic design, web design, blogging - all of my past experience has brought me here. And I'm learning new things all the time. (read my story here)
I do this because I believe I was meant to. I don't think I'll be doing this forever, but right here & now, God has called me to do this. To design beautiful blogs & websites and use my talents to help wherever I can.
But that doesn't mean some days aren't hard. And yes, some days I do doubt more than I should. But I'm working on that.
"Fear hangs out right next to whatever it is you’re most called to do. That means the closer you get to your calling, the louder fear sounds. Keep going–fear is a chihuahua that sounds like a Doberman."
- Holley Gerth, You're Made For a God-sized Dream